Divorce and children

My name is Nino. My family is very broken up. It is a strange situation. My father has been divorced from my mother for many years. My mother has remarried and divorced again and she now lives with my step sister a long way from my town and I am living with my grand-parents. I live happily with them, but sometimes, I feel bad about not having a father. Also, my grand-parents are very old and I can't really communicate with them. They don't understand the world of today, they find it bad. I never see my father. I don't talk to my mother when she visits us. So, I have really no one to talk to personally.